Ramblings

[Tearful_eyes]

It took so long for you to find the words through the seas of utter confusion and captivity.
Here I stand weakened and crumbling because you spoke of lying hearts and confused minds.
I push myself away from the world.
Other’s pity sickens me, makes me vomit in my mind that some are low enough to take this attention.
I never will though, never again.
I become frozen and cold under my skin.
Smiles and happiness of others make me look away out of tearful remorse.
Fear of loneliness falls hard like rain, soaking my clothes.
I’m not strong enough.
Seeing your photographs makes me scream out your name, but you never answer.
All I wanted was to grab hold of something which is real.
Lying in bed next to someone whose love was just lust in sheep’s clothing shattered me through and through.
Will you keep a place in your heart or mind for me or will I be slowly forgotten with time?
You pushed me so far away.
Trying to find self confidence with a broken heart behind the painless smile I show.
Hiding all emotion inside me.
I walk to edges again searching for the truth.
Taken by the memories of all I’ve been through.
Why can’t I have your arms around me so I’ll be ok?
Wish I could turn back the time to have one more chance to do it right.
You never know what tomorrow will bring; will I be scared and alone?
We step out of our everyday lie and call it quits. I’m trying not to feel a thing as you seem to do.
I fight my inner self, with the loss of the lie that made me feel real and alive.